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Thank you for your comments, Frances. Right now I'm just not up to taking on more. Dr. Raymond Moody is an excellent source to learn more about NDEs. He has made quite a study of this subject and has thousands of interviews and comments on his files and it was he who coined the phrase, Near-Death Experience, although he will agree with me that it's more correct to say it's an Awakening experience more than anything else.

In this third density that we are now in, we are actulally living in a matrex: a very restrictive dream state which is meant to give us many of the *limiting* experiences, like hate, love, compassion, loss, fear, desire, pain, betrayal, disinformation, misinformation and the like, that cannot be experienced in our higher, more natural state of consciousness, and helps us mature as Light Beings, which we really are. Earth is actually a school—much sought after and a very sophysticated school, prized in the spiritual world; like Harvard University would be compared to a lesser university that does not "teach" the "courses" that Harvard University offers.

It is next to impossible to fully describe, because, limited as we are in our third density vocabulary, the experiences while in an Awakened (NDE) state of awareness. Let's compare a NDE to someone's interest in skydiving. You can certainly *describe* your skydiving experience, even in great detail to someone else, but the other person could never *experience* nor *feel/understand* the full thrill that you experienced during your dive.

Two of my favorite people who have also had NDE. are Dr.Elizabeth Bolte Taylor, a neuroanatomist at Harvard, and Dr. Eben Alexander, an academic Neurosurgen at Brigham and Women's and Children's Hospitals and Harvard Medical School in Boston. Each have several books out on this subject and are well worth the read. Eckhart Tolley, a Mystic, is also a person whose books are worth reading. I love his outlook on life!

I'm trying to teach myself the craft of speech-to-text on my computer In order to see if I can, again, be more copious in my writing. If you're interested in continuing a dialogue with me, I will enclose my email address: albert74schindler@yahoo.ca

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Love it. Keep writing.

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I share your father's experience (only not as severe) during the second world war in Germany under the Nazis—only my story was in reverse. My my parents were German and came from Germany (Poland, actually) to settle in Saskatchewan, Canada before the war took hold in Europe. Believe me, not my grandparents, my parents nor any of us children had anything to do with supporting Hitler or his Nazi party! We were only too grateful to have escaped a political European boiling pot, and wanted nothing to do with their politics!!

Unfortunately, politics (allied) didn't want to leave us alone. Once the war started, we were branded Bloody Germans and Nazi sympathizers and treated very badly. I was a sensitive child in my early teens during the war years and very aware of my negative social surroundings (I was born in Canada and am a Canadian citizen). During these early school years the few of us "Germans" who attended Hubbard Grade School, were often targeted and told who was going to get beat up by "the allies" after school. At one point I went to our teacher and complained about how I was being treated. Her reply to me? "That's what you get for being bloody Germans!" When the harassment became too severe, my mother finally went to our local RCMP detachment and complained. Their response? "If you don't like it we have places for people like you (Nazis)" meaning concentration camps. Since the small group of us Germans immigrants who clustered around Hubbard, one solace was our Church: in this case, the Lutheran Church. Since most of us still spoke only German, our church services were in German. The "allies" didn't like this so they made us close down our church—just in case any of our German seremons had secret codes in them that could be passed on to Nazi spies and, of course, our English neighbours couldn't speak German so shutting down our Church was their solution to the problem.

I could relate more negative experiences about my life during those war years, but I think you can see that life was not easy for us handful of Germans that lived in Hubbard. However, before I go I should relate one *positive* condition to our plight. Both a Jewish family (their youngest son became one of my closest friends) and an English couple — who owned one of the grocery stores in town and employed my father as a clerk: otherwise, my father would not have been able to work in town—became our closest ally in defening our rights!

You've heard of Oscar Schindler, the main character in the movie "Schindler's List"? A bit of irony here. We're not related to Oscar Schindler, but I'm pretty damn proud of my surname!

Just like life has been a bit of a perplexity for both you and your father, so has it also been for me. Life didn't seem to make much sense. What had I done—or my family done, to deserve some of the negative treatment life threw at me? Was there no righteous God, no Creator who governed this creation? Was all life just a matter of chance? I struggled with this issue until about the time I reached my 82nd year here on earth (I'm 92 years old now). Then, in July of 2013 I had a spectacular Near-death (wrongfully and incorrectly so labeled) experience that quite litereally blew open the gates of Heaven for me. I now understood—not everything by a long shot, but at least much more of life began to make sense. It would take at least one novel-length of writing to even come close to what suddenly was "downloaded" into my consciousness, but at my age, my arthritic fingers won't grant me the privilege to do that much typing, but be assured, there is a very loving Creator (man, woman, being—whatever) who is very conscious of every moment of thought and action that takes place in *Its* creation!!

In German, we have a saying: "Je härter die Rute, desto teurer das Kind." The harder the rod, the dearer the child. If life handed you a bag of lemons, be assured, that's because a very loving God has an eye on you!

PS: Please excuse any typing errors. Arthritic fingers and a computer keyboard don't fully harmonize :-)

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Albert, Sad. My Lithuanian grandparents, mother, uncle experienced similar as the locals in the small Canadian town thought they were German, including the police. Re your death experience, no need to type, but what about an interview on Next Level Soul Podcast on youtube?

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Blessings to you; my family is like Tom's and my grandparents escaped Hungary between the world wars...we all suffered trauma as adults or as kids. I also had a near-death and likewise am sure that there is a Loving Infinite Creator. Gabor Mate wrote a great book called "The myth of normal" with his son. As Humanity now undergoes yet another trauma...keep the Faith. 🙏

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I am so sorry that you suffer like this. I am also 80 and have been in shock for at least 30 years over the blind, uncaring people in modern America also. It is just materialistic, "how do I look sexier" how much FUN can we have by acting outrageous, loud, and obnoxious. How can I feel in another reality with drugs, or getting lost in constant media? Bigger, faster cars.

The total neglect of LIFE on this planet and Nature, the health of rivers, the ocean has hurt me so deeply that I was thrown into flight or fright when I turned 50 have have had chronic pain ever since. I hate modern suburban life - it is lonely, uncaring and daily getting more and more violent. In '65 I worked in an international hostel in London and got to know people from all over the world - I realized how completely superficial most Americans are. Some years later I lived a year in DC in international housing and the Turkish Moslem women I became very close to was the only person I had ever met that was truly loving - and she loved God. When I got back to Colorado I thought I had better educate myself about Christianity and joined a prominent church in town. What a disappointment. In so many ways. I don't know, Tom, Eckhart does show us how to BE, but in 20 years, I have never found anyone who would READ one of his books! Where will people ever learn wisdom if they don't read books - the finest thoughts of the finest people who have ever lived. Yes, it is pure pain to see life now - I never dreamed the world would go so far backwards instead of maturing. So, I deal with the pain, don't talk to anyone at all about it, and love my trees, birds, squirrels and bunnies, the sky and genius beauty of sacred geometry in life.

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I find Hawthorne really helps with heart palps, as well as Skullcap (for anxiety and tinnitus). Steven Buhner herbalist mentions which parts of the Hawthorne are most effective, the berries being on the lesser side, but for me I tincture the berries in potato vodka and I use it that way. In my area of NW US, the Hawthorne berries are ripe about now.

Re the Skullcap, I make a tincture with the leaves. Buying tinctures is a good way to start, but in the long run too expensive for me. Tinctures are easy to make.

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Buhner's books are wonderful and his writing excellent!

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It is unlikely that the hubris of those calling the shots will fall away. Also, those making decisions that will destroy others, are unlikely to put their own families at risk. We see this cycle over and over; it is an inherent part of the shadow side of the human psyche. We cannot control the shadow of others. We can only work to integrate our own, but we will still be at the mercy of environments controlled by unconscious leaders. However, the cycles ebb and flow, and in different locations. The Irish were subjugated by the English for hundreds of years, yet they eventually got out from the yoke of England. At some point the Palestinians may obtain independence, although it does not look good now. What Hamas did was horrific, what Israel is doing to Gaza is horrific. Look what Gandhi achieved without bloodshed. Even if Israel stops encroaching on Palestinian land, and an adequate solution is achieved, there will be atrocities to come in other places, usually provoked by those desiring more at the expense of others. Exploitation is a terrible evil, yet commonplace. We only need look at those who have betrayed us in our own lives, and the costs can affect whole families. The sooner we see the red flags of exploitation disguised as interest, regard or helpfulness, the sooner we can nip the dynamic in the bud. Boundaries with such people are unsustainable, exploiters are too skilled at deception and the art of psychological warfare to lose in the long run. Disengagement is the only solution for those victimized.

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